Tears

I seem to spend an inordinate amount of time in tears lately. I tear up while reading, I tear up while thinking of my children in different situations, I tear up sitting here typing. I have never, in my adult life, been a particularly emotional person. Friends would tell me to be sure and have tissues for a movie, but I found no reason to cry. In the midst of the disintegration of my first marriage, my divorce lawyer told me I was one of the strongest women he had ever met.
I wonder, though, if I was strong because of the little ones for whom I was responsible. My “baby” is nearly twelve. He no longer needs me to do everything for him. I get an occasional glimpse of little boy, but he is really heading toward young man very quickly.
Maybe that is why I suddenly find myself with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat. My life is changing. My children are growing up. My responsibilities are different. I have a little more freedom to feel, to be emotional.
My prayers are even different. Now I pray for my children to keep the faith, for the older ones to return to church, for all of them to understand the healing power of a good confession. I ask Mary, our Blessed Mother, to lay her mantle over them and to keep them safe. I stand back and watch them go their way and pray that it will be God’s way.
I don’t really have an answer to this change in me. I am sure I do not like being weepy. Perhaps the answer lies in changes in my body as I age. Perhaps the answer lies in changes in my heart. Either way, I pray that I continue my life in God’s will. Seeking Him and dying to myself. These are lofty goals, to be sure.

Dear Lord,
Please help me to be the woman, the mother, you would have me be. Change my heart, guide my actions. If tears be required, soften my heart that the tears may fall as You desire.
Amen.

Notebooking Pages

I sometimes post about sales at Notebookingpages.com.  I do this because I really like their products.  I use them in my homeschool all the time.  This year I used the Basic Science Notebooking Pages to create a science notebook for my son.

I also created Copy work notebooks for both my children using the floral notebooking pages for my daughter’s two notebooks and animal copywork pages for my son’s notebook.

I first learned about Notebooking Pages shortly after the first free pages were put up on the internet as samples of the product.  I may have heard about them at Currclick.com (before it was Currclick, even).  Since my own homeschool journey was near its beginning, I wasn’t really sure how I would use these pages, but as time has gone on I have discovered many uses for them. One of my favorite Notebooking Pages products is the State Birds, Flowers, Flags ans Seals pages.  They are an awesome addition to learning about the Unites States.  We used them in a notebook about the states a couple of years ago.  I know I will continue to use these pages in the years to come.

Right now, NotebookingPages.com is celebrating their 6th “birthday”!  There are specials going on and it is really worth while to stop over and check things out.

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Notebooking Pages turns 6!

Notebooking Pages is turning 6!  The resources are fabulous and right now there are giveaways going on.  You can see some free resources here.

I use Notebooking Pages in a variety of ways in my homeschool.  They are a good value and cover many different topics.

New Giveaway by Memoria Press ~ Any Famous Men Set!

Memoria Press publishes many popular homeschooling titles including Latina Christiana, First Form Latin, Traditional Logic and the Famous series of books: Famous Men of Rome, Famous Men of Greece, Famous Men of the Middle Ages, and Famous Men of Modern Times.  They offer a free subscription to The Classical Teacher which is their magazine and catalog.

They are giving away any Famous Men set.  Check them out on the Memoria Press website.  Read all about it and enter to win on the Homeschool Giveaways page here.

Good Luck!

Corporal works of mercy?

I was listening to an afternoon talk show on the radio the other day.  The host and his guest talked about the administration of the welfare system and how it used to be administered on the local level by the cities and towns.  They were discussing the how the attitudes regarding welfare have changed, also.  One of the callers was a teacher at a technical school and he was relating the way his students compared their welfare benefits to one another.  They bragged about the amount they get in “food stamps,” which are now in the form of an EBT (electronic benefits transfer) cards, and in other benefits.  Apparently a man was arrested in the eastern part of the state and there is a recording of a phone call he made demanding that the person on the other end get his EBT card and go to the ATM to get money to get him out of jail.  He made the call from a cell phone.  The cell phone was one of his welfare benefits.

I don’t know much about the arrest or the man who was arrested, but it sounded from the conversation that he has been arrested before.  He was arrested for drug possession with intent to distribute.  He lives fast and “high off the hog” so to speak.  He flashes cash around.  Yet he has a cell phone paid for by the state and an EBT card.

The host recalled the way people felt ashamed of having to be on welfare at all when he was growing up, and indeed, that is my recollection of how people felt about the system when I was growing up, too.  He also recalled that the neighbors knew who was on welfare and they watched out for fraudulent claims.  People also lent a hand to each other.

I wonder what has changed.  Have people become tired of watching others get a free ride and decided they should also get a free ride?  Are more people less able to care for themselves?  Is it simply lacking that the survival skills necessary to make through tough times have not been passed on?  Maybe it isn’t that the skills were not passed on, but rather complacency and the idea that the skills are no longer necessary.

I know there are many people whom are supportive of the welfare system because they believe in social justice.  I don’t believe that keeping people down with handouts is social justice.  Giving each other a hand up in times of need is social justice. The corporal works of mercy are social justice.  People seem to have lost sight of how to care for one another, though.  Community no longer exists.  Sure there are neighborhoods, but are the people living there really neighbors?  Do they come together when someone is hurt or ill?   From what I have seen in my own life, the answer is no.  While sharing the same street or block, people no longer shares their lives with one another.  They no longer care for one another.

I don’t know how I can make a difference in this.  I don’t have answers.  The only thing I am certain of is that I will try to live my life caring for others and assisting those in need where ever I can.  I will try to instill in my children the truth that it is right to help others when we can.